I am not enjoying the cold weather. Trying to study at the dining room table is an absolute misery in winter. Sure, it was sunny and clear yesterday, but it was so cold in the house. I know, I know… too hot and we moan, too cold and we moan. We’re never happy. Humans – we are so hard to please.
You might want to know how my studies are going. The answer is, “Not great.” I did so well in my assignments earlier this semester, but since our team leader at work resigned, things have taken a dive on the study side. No one has been employed to replace him yet. Who knew it was so hard to find suitable, qualified candidates? So, we are sharing the load between 2 of us. We were only a team of 3 to start with. Work is not a cake walk right now and I feel completely overwhelmed and I second-guess everything I do. There have also been a lot of other changes at work, which have brought new processes and frustrations too. I’m sure we will all adapt and things will go smoother as time passes, but by the time I get home, I am exhausted. I don’t even have the time or energy to blog at this point. There is simply too little time for me to get to everything.
I usually take 3 subjects per semester because it’s manageable. I decided to take 4 this semester to push hard and try finish my degree next year (not knowing that my colleague would resign). The workload is heavy and it is causing me huge anxiety. I am studying through a bursary granted by my employer and failing a subject isn’t really an option (there are financial implications). Everyone is all, “You’ll be fine”, “You’ll pass, don’t worry.” But they are not the one in the hot seat. I’m trying to be positive, but I just feel completely overwhelmed.
So, the long and the short is that I am tired and there are simply too few hours in a day. I realise I am not alone and most people have this issue daily, but I just wanted to vent a little to ease my frustration a bit. I’ll keep slogging at it though. Hold thumbs for me, I need all the help I can get.
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